Should I even try if I only seem to make things worse? Should I even bother? No one wants me around. I'm so tired of this repeating cycle that never seems to end. I'm hiding now. More so than I ever was before because if I say anything it will only fuck things up more than they are now. It's all so fucked. Why can't anyone just be happy with what the do have? Why can't I just be happy with what I do have? What do I have anymore that means shit to me? A few friends or 1 that means the most. I'm a peice of shit for saying only 1 because I guess more people might care. Not that they should. I don't know why I reject them.