why the fuck did I do that? I get it now. I get it all.....everything. I get it. Both sides. all sides I fucked up and I get it. I'm right back where I started. why the fuck did I do it? I really regret it now. I really don't know what I was expecting. I really don't know why the fuck I did that. it's not gonna happen I'd hate me. so why'd I have to be so stupid?