I feel good but bad and really really tense and nervous and uneasy and like something is VERY wrong. I don't know why. I shouldn't feel like that. I just always feel like I don't belong. Besides 1 person who else do I have? Maybe I should just go the ther other school. Probably feel more misplaced there though since it's small it's more together. I'd be the odd one out. geez I'm talking about ants. What a productive conversation huh? OH well sometimes these things happen. I feel like I can barely get up enough will power to keep typing. But then I feel like I could just keep typing. I'm just a contradiction.