once again...i haven't written for a few days. i guess that's just the way i am. anyway...a few things have started to get to me and are really bothering me now. number one...i'm sore as a mother. my back is just killing me. that makes for fun times while sitting at my computer. number two...once again...i find myself to be somewhat depressed. it seems to me like i've been saying things lately that make sarah mad. it's the worst thing to me when she's upset with me. i seem to be doing things that upset her. i can just tell by the tone of her voice. either i'm spending too much time with roy or going to sleep early or whatever...i can just tell that she gets upset with me. it hurts. what can i say? i also talked to staci yesterday. that was rather interesting. some of the things she told me were a bit bold. but then again...it's nice to know that she still thinks about me. i sent sarah the convo after and she sent an e-mail back to me. she said that she can relate to staci's situation with her fiancee. she said sometimes she feels like i'll never love her the way i loved staci. that hurt me. we've only been dating for 3 weeks. i just asked her to give me time to prove her wrong. but that really hit me hard. it's the main reason why i'm quite upset today. well...that's all for now i guess. i hope i said enough to help myself feel better. i also hope that some people who read this don't get upset for me not writing every day. that's just not me. this was initally gonna be a private entry but i haven't said anything major so guess what...ya'll can read about how jacked i am today. yay! anyway...i smoke crack rocks. take care all. ---mikey