hey everyone. i just got back from a group meeting. something's been bothering me since before i left. seeing how this is my only outlet...i have no other choice. something isn't right. i'm afraid sarah is mad at me or something. she just wasn't acting like herself earlier when she called me. it upsets me so much when she doesn't act normal cuz i always fear the worst. it's rather upsetting. it really gets to me. she means the world to me. she's the most important thing in my life. my world revolves around her. i love her so much. i want to keep her. i'm afraid something's wrong. and there's nothing i can do. i'm afraid i did something. it sucks. i also really miss her. she was just in new york for three days. i saw her yesterday. now i'm at school til wednesday. i hardly got to spend any alone time with her yesterday. we spent the whole day running errands. i want to be able to be with her. i want to be alone with her. i really haven't had a chance to let her know how much she means to me...besides a few words in her car. i hope she knows how i feel. i hope she's not mad. i hope everything's ok. i hope i didn't mess things up again. i hope she still loves me. thanks for listening...i had to vent cuz...i'm scared. take care all. ---mikey