-Lately for some reason I have felt really lazy and depressed I don't know why either. I really think I should see someone about anxiety because I think I have it. I mean I know everyone has anxiety but I am always worrying even if it doesn't seem like I am. I am always thinking of the little things and what could happen when really nothing will happen. It is retarded and I hate myself for it but I can't help it. Like I just feel like sitting here at home because then nothing bad can happen and I don't want to sit at home I want to go and do something but I feel that if I do something will happen and my life will be ruined. It is messed up I know but of course it is just the way i think. It is hard to talk about because I feel useless sometimes and I always want to be out having a good time and I have been able to loosen up a little more thanx to my friends but I still feel like I am holding them back on some stuff they want to do because I don't want to which is stupid because I am stupid, lol. I know I keep repeating myself but there is so much to say and so few words to say it in, if that makes any sense. I will be fine I just hate always having to worry and I can't help it because when I worry I just keep worrying till the problem or whatever I was going crazy about is taken care of. Ok well I said what I had to say, I will try not to worry myself to death. Oh ya and I need to stop giving a shit what other people think of course for only my good friends and family but for real, I am stupid I shouldn't care or again worry bout what others think, lol. Ok I am done!!! laterz, stubbs