a lot has changed in the past year. right now, i should be in new york, with a girl that i was supposed to be with forever, she moved 2 months earlier then me then i was supposed to go out when she got everything settled. and i fell for her best friend, use your imagination on that one. so i didnt go to new york, dating her best friend, now that is going to hell, havnig total regrets, lots of people and family have said i have changed. and i know i have, i am not the same person. and life isnt horrible, it just is difficult and struggling to get by. i am just not happy. maybe just not happy with myself and what i did. i have lots more to type, but i have to get to bed, work at 5 am tomorrow...