..::: im going over to Sophie's today... i have not hung out with her in a long time so im looking forward to hanging out with her! it is going to be fun! there has been nothing to do today... im bored out of my mind! i hate it when like you are so bored you eat because there is nothing else to do. i have ate like 2 rice bowls in like the last 3 hours. oh well they are so fucking delicious! the first thing when i wake up my mom bitches me out for something or another. doesn't she get it that i don't even fucking listen to anything she says anymore. when i leave i don't even tell her anymore. i will like tell her when im gone and im never home on time for my cerfew. i don't know it is like if i don't listen to her then maybe she will leave me alone and realize that im better off that way... and everytime we get into it it is over something dumb to. and when it is like actually something important my mom like laughs about it like she doesn't care and it is like what the fuck is your deal. i hate it how she does that. i mean come on she has one fucked up daughter that just pretends to be happy so everyone else is happy and then i take my pain out on myself and she like laughs about it. wow! what a way to make your daughter feel like she matters to you. and i mean just like all this other shit that goes way deeper than that. it just all bottles up inside of me and then i do stuff to my self or i do drugs and then it is like everyone is conserned once the worse is over but then they don't give a flying fuck before that... and most of my friends are all like you shouldn't do drugs and i heard about the drugs you do and that is bad for you it kills you. yeah well why the fuck do you think people do it? my mom asked me to quit drinking, because she does not want me to "turn out like her" and i was all like yeah i would mom but im not a quiter. and she like started laughing again then it turned into tears and she wouldn't talk like at all to anyone. what the fuck im done complaining about pathedic life... bye :::..