eric is being such an asshole right now. he just got home from work like 1/2 hour ago, and i've been waitin all day for him to get off work cuz he's been tellin me that i was gonna come over, i just wanted to see him. and now, of course, he choosin to go hang out with his friends AGAIN. i think i've probably seen him like, once this whole week. and he keeps hangin up on me. and he doesnt seem to care that he's hurting my feelings or that i'm cryin. sometimes i wish i had never gotten into a relationship with him. that i had never liked him or loved him, and sometimes i even wish i had never met him. i just dont understand. what is it that he can do with him friends that he cant do with me? talk to other girls? try to holla at them, get their numbers??? thats the only things I can think of. since lately all he's really been wanting to do is hang out with his friends, what does that mean? does it mean that he doesnt wanna be with me n e more? that he doesnt love me? that he wants to talk to other girls? that i'm not good enough n e more? WHAT????????????????????????????????? i just dont get it. and i'm so sick of cryin over him but i cant break up with him. it hurts to even think about me without him. that why i get so upset when he does this shit. sometimes i feel like i have to compete with his friends to get him to be with me, and of course most of the time, i lose. i'm done for now. i gotta quit cryin. my mom can always tell if i've been cryin. i try to keep things like this a secret. sometimes after i'm calm and i think about it, i realize its not that big of a deal. maybe i'm overreacting now. i dont think i am though. i think i have every right to be upset. is it so wrong for me to wanna spend some time with my boyfriend? hell, we can even hang out with a group of his friends...i dont care. as long as i'm with him!