Long time since I've written in this diary. Woah! Lots of stuff to talk about. Like John for example, my ex-boyfriend. He is a character. I can't seem to figure him out. Its like all he cares about is that bad three letter word. Well its not that them that leaves him with no reason to call me, funny huh? That's what I say. I think its really lame when a girl call you only to talk about sex and if its not about that its small talk even after you went out for 5 months. Well that's how it is with him and I. I don't call him anymore, and I certainly talk about sex with him anymore. I put an end to that. Funny enough, he just plain weird. He has like three friends and that's it. He's 20 years old and pretty much a loser. He's either playing X-box or hanging out with his loser friend Dave. PLEASE IF YOU READ THIS: REMEMBER WHO I AM TALKING ABOUT: JOHN BALLARD. Young girls watch out he is a controlling freak and he is 20, goes for young girls. Woah, pretty weird if you ask me. I don't know. But woah he cheated on me with a 16 year old girl too, woah that's cool. To bad I'm way to good for him. What's the straight up truth. Too smart, too cute, everything. I hope I go somewhere in my life and find out he ended up no where, because he never tries when he does stuff. It's lame. I seriously don't like this kid and yet I feel bad for anyone who still talks to this creep. Well that's all I gotta say. LATER!!

ALRIGHT!! It's been awhile now. There is not to much to talk about just all the things since I wrote last, huh? Well this last weekend was fun. I hung out with my boyfriend, my sister and her boyfriend all night on Friday. That was interesting. On Saturday I got up and did a little homework and then, my friend, Marissa and I went to the Buena school play...everyone HAS to go. It is soooooooooooo good. Everyone has to go on Friday, November 12- 7 pm sharp..and it costs $3 for all students. Then we went back to Marissa's and hung out til like 11:00 something and then I came home. Ginally on

Hey guys! Well, its been a while since I have written in this thing. Well, I'm home today because I'm really sick. I'm taking this medicine that is SOOOOO gross, but it makes me feel better so its all good. My grandma is making me pancakes, yummy! OH, by the way the update on John and I, everything is sooo perfect. Well, things in life are good. WOO WOO!! I think this medicine is geting to me. Sorry guys if I sound a little out of it. I feel like crap right now though. So if you wanna bring me over so soup it sounds like a plan. HAHA. Well, the dance was fun on Friday though. All us gurlies were over at Ki's and Tori, Jess, Therese and Jared were there too. It was all good. The cimmamon sticks were the best part though, right Khalela? lol. Well anyway my Pancakes are ready, woo woo...love, peace and chicken grease..right B-unit? well I really gotta go...bye guys

Ok guys. Well its been a long time. Well I'm super excited cause in like 2 hours, I'm going to start moving into my GINORMIS(yes, I made up a new word Michelle). lol. Well anyway this house is like hella big. When we first went to look at it, I was like, "Can I get a 'HELL YA'"! It's CRAZZZZZY cool. But I'm soooooo excited. Only thing is once more there will be 2 adults and 4 kids. SO we will officially be "the Brady bunch" again. Well, anyway I gotsta roll.

Ohhhh...you touch my tra la la la, ...my ding ding dong, ....Knobby Knobster(TIM(TRA LA LA), KORY(Hit me 'gain), ARIA(I love you boy), JADE(what, YEAH, oK!), MICHELLE(ZOIE, ZOIE!, SEVEN(plus mono), my latin lover!!), LAUREN(Yo HO), ERIN(Baby gurl(no seriously), SARAH(Dress code!oh please), HILARY (Your raft is squashing my head(DOM)..Ohh...there goes a hott guy), DANNY (YOU'ES A COOL KID NOW), MYLES(ALL ABOUT THE MUSIC), BRITNEY(GOSH, I WANT SOME CHOCOLATE!), WHITNEY(OH, NICHOLAS..), KAT(I'm a cat, I'm a kitty cat, and I dance dance dance to the dance dance dance dance), KEA(MICROPHONE: "BRE..., BRE..., BRE..., I need you to come here, BRE, We are GONNA play a game" and all your love songs to me), DOM(FAIRIE, Have fun in Nevada), ALEX(I love you!! Have fun in Spain), MARTA(HOLA!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEETIE), JASON Q(Good cop, bad cop), and all your other cool cats at the Conejo YMCA-Megan, Jason L., Jessie, Chris, Paul, the other Jessie, Amber, Loyral, Nick, Kathlynn(Best Counselor EVER), Ruby(Tooty Fruity, Oh Ruby!), MAE, Jenny, ADAM(Party Hardy)---I love you all!!!

Well, I have no clue what "blotto" means, but hey, its a new day and a new word at that. Well, I'm a little disappoint. All next week I have to go to this C.I.L.T. camp to become a "certified" camp counselor. Boring, I've went to leadership camps since 7th grade. Well, those were only for a day but this is for a week!! Then my mom wants me to become a certified "lifeguard" again. woo hoo!!! YEAH RIGHT! All I wanted to teach kids was to ride horses! Doesn't take much skill from a kid who's work with horses her whole life! Well, there is a upside to this story.. I'm also going to this other camp. Its called Crossroads its for high schoolers, so I will get to see all my old buds. WOO WOO!! Besides all you do in this camp is go to amusement parks everyday of the week. ANYONE WANT TO GO WITH ME?? Call me(if you know me--BRENDAN)! Well, once again we are waiting to here back from this lady telling us if we got the house we applied for, or not. I really hope we do. All y'all say a little pray about it please. Well, anyway I got to jet. But call the cell if you need me. Thanks always, and remember its love, lust and fairy dust -Bre

Well guys and girls, Its 10:33 on a Saturday morning, and I'm writing this entry. Fun stuff. Well, I'm going to the mall in like an hour..woo woo. Chrissy and Nate are probably gonna come. Well, last night was fun, my family and I went out to Sushi, dang I love that stuff. Besides laying out and working on my tan. (You know I'm just so dark!! lol)Then on Thursday I got out from school for the summer, thought a little, and then Brendan and me went to the mall and just hung-out, it was tons of fun!!:) My homeboy and me, we talked about a couple things. Well, geez...my summer is already filling up so much!! This week is the only week I'm not planned for doing stuff. I gotta go the following week to my huge volleyball tournament, then the next week, I have to go to a Leadership camp to become a certifed camp counsel, and then the next week I have to go to camp, then I gotta help my aunt move, then I gotta move myself(in the middle on july)!! Woo I'm so busy!! Oh well, at least I'm not gonna be bored! lol...well anyway I gotta go get in the shower... later y'all

Well I didn't even get to say good-bye to him... I mean he tried to talk to me today but I couldn't help him with his classwork because I was trying to get caught up on mine...I mean is that blowing him off?? I really don't know anymore. All I know is that I really like him, but that doesn't seem to matter to anyone but me. I really really like him, and he kept walking right by me today, and I didn't say a word to him, it was almost like he was walking by to get my attention...but I don't know what to do about it all. I wish that he would just call me, or e-mail me, anything!! I just wish that he knew I truly liked him... but I don't know how to tell him...well i g2g...think about it all

Goodness I'm so bored!!! Man! I think I seriously need to get out of this house...but I know I gotta help Richard...too bad Fun stuff....last night was so tiring...well we went to the mall and I got a new Billabong swinsuit...super cute...it's brown, purple and white. I also got a new skirt and got my mom some Roxy sandals. She likes them thank. No more wearing mine!! Well anyway so we get home from shopping and getting cigarettes and dinner at about 10:30..well my step dad has this super bad problem and he had to go to the ER on a friday night and have it cut open! Poor thing, its hurting pretty bad and were all sitting here crackin jokes about it! But Chrissy had to spend the night and that was fun. We watched Jumanji until like 12:00 and slept for 3 hours, got back up at 3:00 and talked to my mom about what was going on until like 4. Finally I got to go to sleep! But it was supposed to be my family birthday party today and we had to cancel it until next weekend. That stinks, but I really hope Richard starts feeling better. I was supposed to go a tournament today and I had to cancel that. PLUS I have one tomorrow too but I don't have any clue how I'm supposed to get up there!! I'm stuck in my home all day! One good thing though, Nathan and Chrissy are going to rent Monster, Miracle and Welcome to Mooseport. WOO WOO! lol...well anyway I better get going. Gotta go take a shower and go some of this homework. continued... well that movie Monster was a trip...I got half way through Miracle and was so tired that I crashed out. dang. oh well. Well I better get...later Bre

It's my 15th birthday!!! and guess what else...I took this test about with care bear I am and it says that I am...LOVE A LOT BEAR!!! WOO WOO!! I'm a hopeless romantic

I'm just torn up over Tyler...I dunno there is just something about his death that just really hit my heart bad. My uncle died on Monday and Tyler died on Thursday morning. It's all just so unfair. Why did he have to die to young. He was just such a great guy. He was a Christian, just plain great guy. And God decided to take him at 19..why? I dunno. But I know one thing that if anyone is lucky in this situation it's him. Cause I know he is Heaven and I dunno but my heart just aches about it all. But I knew he was very sick and that he time was coming soon anyway. All I have now is the picture of his smiling face in my head, and the thought of him up in Heaven with God. Which I know his is there. Well, anyway...I'm going camping with the family right now. Maybe that will get my mind off things for now. I hope it does. Just a fun weekend with the Family.:)

Well, I only want to say....God rest you in Peace Tyler I will always remember the hope that you gave me and my grandmother. I know you will be in Heaven and that I will always remember you as the smiling angel in the clouds, but for the short while that I knew you, I knew that you could be the person that really made a difference in my life. You always were smiling, you understood why you were here on earth, so strong, and courageous. If only God wouldn't have taken you so soon. But I know your somewhere in the sky, and I know that you are happier than you ever could have been on earth. So I just want to tell you thank you, I love you, and put in a good word for me.:) R.I.P. Tyler Teague July 9, 1985- May 27, 2004 God bless you always.

Hey guys, well its a new day and well I am so tired. I had a tournament on Sunday and we at least moved up some, so in Reno we won't be working inbearably hard trying to catch up. Well, I super tired from that, and then last night I had practice and Kernel Jeff as we call him...worked our butts off, he's super nice, I happy for him and Janee, they are perfect for each other.:) Well, I'm just soooo tired, came home, took a nap, and now I'm just sitting here writing this, getting ready to do my homework, and waiting for Mom to get home from work. Long ol' day. Oh well. Well dad finally e-mail me today! and he asked me about the LAKERS!! lol..that was pretty funny considering tons of my best friends are like die-hard lakers fans. Well, I thought that was just funny that he happened to bring that up. Well, I have a really good laugh today with my poppy. I was driving home from school and I was all "I'm hungry" and he sticks his hand out as if you would shake it and was all "I'm Tom" lol!!! hehehehehehehe..dude I was dieing after that one. My grandpa is one of the coolest guys I know. He's a dork, but a super funny dude. Well I dunno what else there is to write......um...oh ya! All ya'll I got a new screen name..ask me about it later....all y'all who love me. Man I felt so braindead all day!!! I kept spacing out. I'm so tired..well ya that all I gotta finished this homework.....lovin' y'all always

"You gotta talk to the one who made you, Talk to the one who understands Talk to the one who gave you all the light in your eyes, all the light in your eyes. You gotta talk to the one who made you, Talk to the one who understands Talk to the one who gave you all the light in your eyes, all the light in your eyes. You gotta talk to the one who loves you, Talk to the one who understands Talk to the one who gave you all the light in your eyes, all the light in your eyes. Yeah! thank you thank you, Yeah! thank you thank you Yeah! thank you thank you For the light in your eyes, for the light in your eyes" The Chorus' and bridge of Light in your Eyes from by Sheryl Crow ....one of my favorite songs ever. Yep...well I'm at my cousins, I'm here all friday night and saturday. Well, camri(my five year old cous) and I are gonna watch Peter Pan!! Fun stuff..**heart**-that's from camri...she's the coolest kid I know besides my little bro. They rock my socks. Well at least this song does. Well I had a good day. I gotta finish some homework before my volleyball tourney on Sunday. Fun stuff if you ask me. Well I dunno, I finally have gotten over a few things in the past. Well, actually all of them, thank goodness for the time that has passed. I'm lovin it now. I just miss something who was always very special to me although things weren't always perfect. Well, I just wish that person will one day come back to me. For me I'm just ok knowing that our differences were the things in life that truly define me as a person. Like all the things he had done wrong to me will be the things I will never mess up in my own life. That's for sure. Well I gotta go watch this movie...I'm super stoked. Oh yeah, guys I found out that the guy I like doesn't like me one bit...that kinda messed my day up but I'm cool with it, I guess he just wasn't the guy for me. "Where's my Romeo" hehe...Theresey and Khalela would get that. Just for you two. Oh! HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAZZY MAE!!! I love you! Have fun in Colorado. p.s. the count to my birthday is now down to 1 week and 6 days!! :) WOO WOO!!

Well, today was great! I was super tired though..5 and half hours of volleyball tryouts and practice, man was I tired! lol...well rosie and Jas left for there camping trip to the Colorado river today...I hope they have fun:)! Well, I told rose and jaz at night to look up at the brightest star and no matter where they were I would looking at it too and I would be with them...lol. Well I'm in a good mood today! I slept in, and then I went to second period, Pancho is a funny one that's for sure. Well, we were laughing all 3rd period. Poor Josh, we were bagging on him today. Lauren super sweet though. Oh goodness, my grandma is laughing so hard right now, and she was singin' along with on of my songs just a minute ago...how funny! Well everything is good right now! Fun stuff huh? Well, besides the fact that I'm still searching for that Romeo! lol...Khalela would get it..."Where's my Romeo" she's got a good one I'll give her that much...JARED!! My power ranger bud! You take care of her to hear me? lol...I know you do. Well, I mean its just kinda hard though because of the whole divorce thing between my parents but I know that I'm not them and all, but it sure was hard. I'm gonna change that from now on and start trusting people again...that would be a good thing. Well guys its like 2 weeks till my birthday... JUNE 3rd Baby!! WoO wOo!! Well I don't think I'm gonna have a party..with it being Chris's birthday, and Amanda's and Jeffrey's too. I just think that it would kinda be hard to figure it all out. Well I dunno about ya'll but I know I gotta get going on my homework....lol...but I'll talk to ya later!! lovin' ya always!! ~Breezey Mae

I believe called love, just listen to the rythme of my heart! lol...where's my Romeo?? THERESEY!! lol...where for art thou Romeo? lol...well TODAY was FUUUUNNN!! I got Ms. Hill is the dunk tank...woo hoo!! Well, I will write more later...well today was SOOOOO MUCH FUN!! Theresey, Khalela, Tori and Sara had a freakin blast...the BBQ was great, and ENGLISH class rocked my socks...lol..everything rocks my socks...lol...well I'm soo happy about going camping tomorrow. Camri and Colbz and Polly and Miltan...lol...miltan that so funny.. well we are all going to the camping thingy tomorrow..its gonna be awesome!! Well, I got tons of homework though, oh well...anyway I gotta go for now...but WHERE'S MY ROMEO...just for Theresey...later

I believe...I can...I believe I will....I believe I'll go....all my dreams are real...that is why I do believe...I'm sooo nervous..gonna go talk to Janee about the things that happened at practice...I'm sooo scared. Oh NO! I want to but I know that she is soooooo mad at me...that is not good. I hope she understands that it did hurt me as much as it did. Please God help her and give her peace...please oh please

Why is it that the simplest things amaze you? I don't know exactly why...but my mom and little bro should be home anytime now...wow..I really missed them...well things are pretty bad right now...some shit that just doesn't make any since...why is it that God chose me to give all the crap. I mean the situation with my dad, my mom's family side, my brothers who I still have to meet, my friends, my boyfriends, why did God choose me. The only person in the world who I feel understands me is my mom, she pretty much went through the same crap in her life. Well it's almost like my life is the Romeo and Juliet play. I just wish there was my own world. Like my dreams of one day getting away from stupid Ventura, the old people capital of America...its so true, theres just not my dream guy here...all I wish is for the perfect guy..and that just isn't something I will ever find here is ventura, GOD I hate living here. Please just send me away...to a different country or state. Something. Please. Well I gotta go...I'm super tired .......I wish life would just work out for me..lovin ya always

WHY????? Gosh my grandma is dumb...she freakin' deleted 2 freakin' hours of freakin' work!!!! AHHHHHH!!!! I've got sooo many freakin' problems right now..with friends, and family... at least my Brett and Melissa had a good time last night. lol. Yep. You know what, that picture of Kermit looks like he's saying sup' nigga' lol..me and brett and melissa...who do? and WHAT? YEAH!! OK!!...that was probably the best night I've had in a while. Well, I don't know who i like...nick or Jadiel, I think I like Nick for right now...well I dunno its all just kinda confusing....well all I have to say is that last night was great, I wasn't sitting on my butt at home, but actually doing something, well not just something more like a lot...lol...well I gotta get...later ya'll

I DON'T FEEL GOOD!!! This seriously stinks...my neck hirts soooo bad!! its suer tense! Well I jsut thought I would write, and well my throat hurts super bad too. Well anyway I gotta go, later gator.