Why is it that the simplest things amaze you? I don't know exactly why...but my mom and little bro should be home anytime now...wow..I really missed them...well things are pretty bad right now...some shit that just doesn't make any since...why is it that God chose me to give all the crap. I mean the situation with my dad, my mom's family side, my brothers who I still have to meet, my friends, my boyfriends, why did God choose me. The only person in the world who I feel understands me is my mom, she pretty much went through the same crap in her life. Well it's almost like my life is the Romeo and Juliet play. I just wish there was my own world. Like my dreams of one day getting away from stupid Ventura, the old people capital of America...its so true, theres just not my dream guy here...all I wish is for the perfect guy..and that just isn't something I will ever find here is ventura, GOD I hate living here. Please just send me away...to a different country or state. Something. Please. Well I gotta go...I'm super tired .......I wish life would just work out for me..lovin ya always