well today i worked and made 45 dollars, for yesterday and today of course, but its still money. i took them swimming. . i feel bad but i like one of them more. allison is quiet, the oldest an listens really well. sarah is kinda pushy and wants me to carry her and throw her in the pool but i cant cuz im not strong enough. i got my cheerleading stuf today, i traded with danielle bc hers was toobig and mine was very snug, i look better in a seven but i have a gut. it shows really bad and thats probably what im most self conscious(spelling?)about. im ok that i have no chest but my stomach is too much bc i have nothing on top. i tried not to eat anything today in hopes i could lose some weight. i had some strawberries for breakfast and a bowl of cereal for lunch. i need to get motivated. o well. my mom said i need to do more situps cuz she says i have a gut too. but it wont make it go away. just tone it and i want it gone. tomorrow is the big day. this house makes me depressed because i dont know anyone and its so far to walk. i hate it when my friends drive me because gas is expensive and im out of the way. maybe if i pass the test driving will help me when im lonely. wish me luck. hunter comes home in four days. yay. i wonder what hes doin now. krista