dont even care anymore...fuck some high skool drama. im life of the goddamn party. fuck online journals. im timfuckinburba. and also....fuck emotions during senior year. (insert whatever reason ud think id say here)
check ur email, sweetie...
skool 2morrow. wish every1 well...i need to paint my spot.
So you think that it's over Say your love has finally reached
the end
Anytime you call Night or day I'll be right there for you
If you need a friend
Yeah Love is all around you
Love is knocking outside the
door
Waitin' for you Is this love made just for two
Keep an open heart and you'll find love again
I know you'll find love again
It's gonna take a little time
Time is sure to mend your broken heart
Don't you even worry Pretty darlin'
I know you'll find love again
Love will find a way
rachel, katlin, ashley, tiffany, alex, gabrielle, beth, amy
water, water everywhere
and not a drop to drink
and i want a COKE
your heart is a river, that flows from your chest, through every organ, your brain is the dam, i am the fish who cant reach the core
- ben gibbard
the 1 thing i have good in my life and i dont even have a grasp on it. plus i need a shower. i hope nikole avoided alex successfully. i love her
what does it take to get a drink in this place?
i worked 18 hours in 2 days. for summer time thats a lot.
special underwear for some other guy? y would u say something like that? i have feelings, and theyre bruised even b4 u said that. ty. IDEEKAY
what does it take, how long must i wait?
man, can 1 feel worse? i had planned to write this big entry about what is going thru my head. no one would understand, tho. its weird. i dont think even i would understand.
dont wake me i plan on sleeping in
so i wuz shitty about a certain situation to a man i owe my life to. i say a man becuz no 1 i kno could go thru the shit hes been thru and not have done anything drastic. jus grin and bear it. ive been with him thru it all. an apology is not enuff and as much as i felt i wuz in debt to him, multiply that by the number of slices of mr gattis pizzas ben jones can eat in an hour. what i did was not acceptable and i deserve whatever that bitch karma has coming for me. and like this man has taught me, ill grin and bear it. cuz better days are sure to come.
slightly bored and severely confused
to aimee, who i quote, said : R U GAY???
fuk u aimee. fuk u to hell.
to a female i that im told i did nothing out of the ordinary: get over it. the emodrama is old now.
nikki i love you. hang in there.
robyn: (see above)
davey: aarons got a knife get away from him.
nickakasteveo: i love u mahn.
and we can swim everyday in november
who u think it is, it isnt.
what u think it is with who u think it is, is the contrary.
get it right.
Like the naked leads the blind.
I know I'm selfish, I'm unkind.
Sucker love I always find,
Someone to bruise and leave behind.
All alone in space and time.
There's nothing here but what here's mine.
Something borrowed, something blue.
Every me and every you.
Have you ever. . .
1. Kissed your cousin: yes
2. Ran away: a couple of times. my mom laffd and packed me a bologna sandwich every time
3. Broken someone's heart: unfortunately
4. Cried when someone died: yes
5. Wanted someone that you knew you couldn't have: yes
6. Broken a bone: nope
7. Drank alcohol: not anymore
8. Lied: lol, i mean....no
9. Cried at school: not in high skool
Which is better..?
1. Coke or Pepsi: pepsi
2. Sprite or 7up: to quote snoop: "i treat a bitch like 7up, neva have, neva will!"
3. Girls or guys?: depends...
4. Scruff or clean: like a dirty girl? what kind of dirty?
5. Quiet or loud: loud like everythings a blur and moving really fast
6. Blondes or Brunettes: blondes
7. Bitchy or slutty: slutty
8. Tall or short: dont matter
9. Pants or shorts: im with aaron, basketball shorts til we D-I-E
With the opposite sex..
1. What do you notice first: hair, lips
2. Last person you slow danced with: robyn
3. Worst question to ask: so whats up with u and ________?
When was the last time you..
1. Showered: this morning
2. Had sex: i dont do that
3. Had a great time with the opposite sex: today
What is/who is
1. Your good luck charm: my fuckin brain
2. The person you hate most: i dunno...whoevers the puppetmaster
3. The best thing that happened to you today: called in work
Favorites..
1. Color: green & orange
2. Movie: half baked, pulp fiction
3. Book: fuk a book
4. Subject in school: prolly anyting to do with pe
5. Juice: orange
6. Cars: anything fast
7. Ice cream: butter pecan
8. Holiday: does the fair count?
9. Season: summer
10. Breakfast food: skome fuckin frosted flakes
11. Place to go with your sweetie: doesnt matter
Who. . .
1. Makes you laugh the most: dave foster and i always laff the most with aaron
2. Makes you smile: my friends
3. Gives you a funny feeling when you see them: brittani
4. Has a crush on you: i dunno, dont really care
5. Do you have a crush on: crushes get crushed
6. Has it easier, guys or girls: guys, cuz we be dem ballin bois
Do you/Have you..
1. Sit by the phone/ wait by the phone all night: i have
2. Save AOL/AIM conversations: no
3. Save E-Mails: no jus too lazy to delete some
4. Wish you were someone else: no
5. Wish you were a member of the opposite sex: no, but gina, having a penis is awesome
6. Cry because of someone's mean words: kinda cuz i knew they were hurt
7. Fallen for your best friend (opposite sex): ::sigh::
8. Been rejected: yah but i didnt stop trying
9. Been in lust: yes
10. Used someone: yes
11. Cheated on someone: i dunno, maybe
12. Done something you regret: yea
The last person you..
1. Touched: robyn
2. Hugged: my mom
3. Had sex with: guess
4. Yelled at: my mom
5. Ate with: robyn and some mediocre o'charleys
6. Who broke your heart: franceska
Do you..
1. Color your hair: occasionally
2. Have tattoos: not yet
3. Have piercings: ear and maybe something else soon
4. Have a bf/ gf/ both: nope
5. Own a webcam: no
6. Ever get off the damn computer: rarely on it
7. Habla espanol: fuk some guacomole
8. Quack: who the fuk quacks? i mean, is it funny to ask some1 if they quack? is the person filling this out gonna be lmfao? no1 finds this funny and if anyone copies and pastes this delete this stupid shit.
Do you/ Have you/ Are you?
1. Stolen anything: yeah
2. Smoke: no
3. Obsessive: when it comes to music
4. Obssessive compulsive: dont care enuff
5. Panic: no
6. Anxiety: no
7. Depressed: no
8. Suicidal: no
9. Obssessed with hate: no. god, i am so not fucked up.
10. Dream of mutilated bodies, blood, death, and gore: only in the good 1s
11. Dream of doing those things instead of just seeing them: yea, but i seldom remeber my ddreams
Just a few more questions..
1. If you could be anywhere, where would you be: highland coffee w/some friends &/or head fones and a blended freeze
2. Can you do anything freakish with your body: i can make my boner jump
3. What facial feature do you find the most attractive on others: nice hair, full lips
4. Would you vote for a woman candidate for president?: bitches cant run this country
5. Would you marry for money: probably
6. ever had braces: nope, gonna have to pay for them on my own, dont wanna talk abou tit
7. Do you like hairy backs: lol...well... i do have this reoccuring dream of yetis
8. When was the last time you had a hickey: i dont remember...the most memorable wuz the 1 sharon gave me
9. Could you live without a computer: done it b4
10. Do you use ICQ, AOL, AIM, yahoo Messenger, etc.: aim
11. If so, how many people are on your buddy list: 117
12. Do you wear white socks: yep
13. Do you wear shoes in the house or do you take them off: i 4get to take them off sometimes
14. What is your favorite fruit: honeydew melon
15. Do you eat white or wheat bread: whatever my mom buys
16. What is your favorite place to visit: trailwood
17. What is the last movie you saw: madagascar
18. Are you photogenic: i dont kno
19. Do you dream in black and white or in color: color
20. Are you wearing nail polish: on my chest
21. Is it chipped or fresh: get the fuck outta here
22. Do you have dimples: no
23. Do you remember being born: no, thank god. could u imagine see the inside of ur mothers vagina?
24. Why do you take surveys: (see question about quacking)
25. Do you drink alcohol: try not to
26. Do you like or love high school: despise
27. Do you like sunrises or sunsets the most: sunsets
28. Do you want to live to be 100: yes
29. Is a flat stomach important to you: dont really care
30. Do you or have you played with a Ouji board: fake
31. Are you loyal: if its important
32. Are you tolerant of others' beliefs: im not like intolerant or anything
33. When you watch movies at home, do you like the light on or off: off
34. whats a funny word: lol, ro-ads
35. At what age did you find out that Santa Clause wasnt real: 8
36. How many pairs of shoes do you have in your closet: like 6 but i wear like 1
37. Do you like to wear the same pair of shoes to school everyday or do you like a variety: same
38. Do you write poetry: i try not to
39. Do you snore: like a fuckin snorlax
40. Do you sleep more on your back, stomach, or sides: i start on my stomach
41. Do you have a dog or a cat: no
42. Do you lick stamps: ? theyre self adhesive
43. Do you use an electric can opener: no
44. Have you ridden in a hot air balloon: no
45. Which hurts more, physical pain or emotional pAiN: emotional all the way
46. Favorite TV show: family guy, inferno, sportscenter
47. Do you know anyone that is clinically depressed: i kno ppl desperate for attention
48. Do you prefer the piano or the violin: piano
49. Are you a sex addict: i try to be
50. Do you know someone that has cancer?: yes
51. Do you like to argue: yes
52. Do you hunt: i duck hunt
53. Do you like fast food joints or expensive restaurants: the latter
54. Would you rather visit the zoo or an art museum: how about a zoo with art painted by elephants and gorillas?
55. Are you basically a happy person: yea
56. Are you tired: what 17 yr old isnt?
57. Did you drink anything with caffeine in it today: yea
58. Have you ever met anyone off the internet: no
59. How many phones do you have in your house: 2 house fones, seperate lines. 3 cell fones
60. How long is your hair: short
61. Do you get along with your parents: yea but we pretend we dont
62. What color eyes do you prefer: anything but dark
63. Do you like your name: yea
64. Were you named after anyone: my uncle, whos a stripper
65. Do you wish on stars: not anymore
66. When did you last cry: dont remember
67. Do you like your handwriting: ppl say i write like a girl. would u like it?
68. What is your #1 priority in life: to have fun
69. What is your favorite lunchmeat: honey baked ham
70. Any bad habits: bite my nails, lying
71. What is your most embarrassing CD, and the most recent CD you purchased: dont get embarrassed. i dunno...i usually have ppl burn me cds. that wouldbe the common.
72. If you were another person, would you be friends with yourself: i love myself, so yes
73. Have you told a secret you swore not to tell: yes
74. Have you stolen anything: yea
75. Do looks matter: some ppl can grow on u
76. Have u ever misused a word and it sounded completely stupid: prolly but i play it off
77. Do you think there is a pot of gold at the end of each rainbow: i think theres an orgy of leprachauns
78. Do fish have feelings: fish can feel dees nuts
79. Are you trendy: not really
80. How do you release anger: push ups
81. Where is your second home: timmys
82. Do you trust others easily: yes
83. What was your favorite toy when you were little: a blanket, called it my beebee
84. What class in school do you think is totally pointless: fluckin history
85. Do you like sappy love songs: yep
86. Have you ever been on the radio or television: yes
87. Do you have a journal: no
88. Do you use sarcasm a lot: yah
89. Have you ever been in a different country: no
90. What do you look for in a guy/girl: someone to make me feel wanted
91. What are your nicknames: tim, daddy
92. Would you bungee jump: yep
93. Do you untie your shoelaces when you take off your shoes: if i have them laced too tight
94. What are you worried about right now: GETTING A CAR
95. Do you think you are strong: yes
96. Whats your least favorite thing in the world?: drama
97. Whats your least favorite thing to do: shave
97. What would you change about yourself: i wouldnt be such a sucker. id stay sucka free
98. Who are the people you most care about: my friends, duh
99. ever been in love: yes
100. are you in love: i think so
i love u nikki!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
every1 is a product of their enviroment.
"Thinkin' Again"
Satisfaction is power over everything and I'm powerless
Gluttony hasn't gone out of style since the fall of man
We scratch and claw we steal and kill ambitions caused
When one can't forget the magnitude of his fist high
And I'm thinkin' again
Trying to unravel the mystery of existing so perplexing
I'm not missing anything
I don't think
Constantly listening and looking and feeling and I'm still
Just as lost as a human can be
And I'm thinkin' again
All I can do is let it happen to me
And I'm thinkin' again
I'm thinkin' again
And I'm drinkin' again
And I'm thinkin' again
And I'm thinkin' again
Looking for things to do to pass the time between birth
And becoming part of the earth
Working playing and laying staring comparing
That over there to this
I'm blaming those in charge cuz after all there's nothing else to do
Money pays for things that don't really belong to you
And I'm thinkin' again
And I'm drinkin' again
And I'm thinkin' again
And I'm drinkin' again
And I'm thinkin' again
A velvet tablecloth a pack of viceroys a bottle of gin
And I'm thinkin' again
And I'm drinkin' again
And I'm thinkin' again
And I'm thinkin' again
A deck of cards playing solitaire birds everywhere in a park on a bench
I smell of an aweful stench
I am a loser and I'm all alone I sit in the bathroom and thump my bone
I got 25 cents to my name a bag of laundry who's to blame
I haven't worked in 16 days
And I'm thinkin' again
And I'm drinkin' again
And I'm thinkin' again
And I'm drinkin' again
And I'm thinkin' again
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Take Chances. Tell the truth. Date someone totally wrong for you. Say no. Spend all your cash. Fall in love. Get to know someone random. Be random. Sing out loud. Laugh at stupid jokes. Cry. Apologize. Tell someone how much they mean to you. Tell a jerk what you think. Laugh til your stomach hurts and your eyes water. Live life. And most of all... have no regrets.
no shrooms for tim todd.
nigga got a job. plus i be hoopin. and i be wet.
big ups to the nigger knocker aka greg jones jr. aka one hitter quitter