Sometimes this life can be sooo f*ing gay! I jus live my life day to day hoping for some sign of difference. But it’s all the same. I CANT STAND HAPPIENESS! IN REALITY LIFE IS NOT AS HAPPY AS PEOPLE TRY TO MAKE IT SEEM! WHY DO PEOPLE ALWAYS SEEM SO HAPPY? Deep down they know they are hurting. I hope people read this and maybe see the real me is. IM NOT WHO YOU THINK I AM! ALL YOU PEOPLE THINK IM A F*ING PREP! Well the truth is IM NOT!!! I hate people who are PREPS that try to make their life sound so friggin abnormal. But if you really want abnormal you should listen to my life. I’ve grown up not having a lot of money. My father is an alcoholic, my brother nick is blind. Brian is gay and does witchcraft. Kevin is married with 2 kids, And josh I don’t know about him. Lol, no he worries me just a bit… j/p. he’s probably the only sane one in the house. Except for me … okays I lied i'm not ne where close to being sane. And our friends’ wows are they ever crazy. Especially Zack Burns and Adam Lux. But Josh and Zack are trying to hook me up with Adam…but what about Larry things are going good for us. The way we planned …But…well… I don’t know… maybe it’s all THIS FRIGGIN HAPPINESS MAKING ME NAUSIOUS.