quite possibly going to be a very very very bad day. the events of last night didn't help much. i'm a douche bag and that's the only way to characterize last night. finally finding something great and watching it go somewhere and i go and mess it up one more time. i felt like a 13 year old being being taken advantage of and at the same time, a 20 year old who knew quite well what was going on and not knowing how to handle it. and now i'm probably without a job. look at me. i'm sitting at work right now typing this. i was twenty minutes late to work today. i didn't have to work until 2pm! its bad enough that i'm probably just ruined something that's probalby never going to come around again if i'm not completely 100% carefull. i am officially have won the douche bag of the year award in the past 24 hours, and it's only january 20th. some one please shoot me. please