another lonely night! you'd think i'd be getting used to it by now. hmm.. just got back from san antonio. played a show at crabby jacks. actually a pretty cool place, but the show wasn't anything special. the two bands we played with were pretty cool though. spent all night hitting on a girl just to piss my room mate off. well.. that's not really how it goes. i think she is QUITE swell, but she fucked my roommate over a couple of years ago. i always restrained myself knowing that it would be bad for our friendship for me to hit on her. until i realized that he would do the same to me in a heartbeat. so fuck him. agh.. i had oysters tonight. it's hard sleeping alone after indulging in aphrodesiacs. guess i just have to sleep on my side tonight. :P mmmm.. old No.7.. that's the stuff.. maybe a little whiskey will rub that out. it's funny how i've conditioned myself over the years to need to be with someone. i'm even writing this hoping some incredibly sweet and attractive girl will read it and feel sorry for me and want to cuddle. cuddling is nice. "when you're alone, do you make faces at the dark? when you're feeling desperate, who's the one you call?" i need something new in my life so badly. work, band, cigarettes, and booze are the only things i have to entertain or annoy me. and they all do both so well! i'm even considering hooking back up with an ex girlfriend for crissakes. ooooh save me jebus...