so it would seem that i am once again incapable. the worst part is that it's absolutly no body's fault. i need a scape goat. i only find capability in booze. i am socially screwed sober. i never thought that i would ever imagine quitting drinking, but i think it's coming soon. i have too many crutches and not enough legs. i'm exhausted but there's no way i'm going to be able to sleep anytime soon. i'm so pathatic.