wow, what a fucked weekend. made absolutly no money. spent about sixty bucks on nothing. way to much booze and smokes. my body's going into shock i believe. didn't get back to the party until 8am. i wonder where kristen is. i should have come home last night. i really want to see her. it's been about three days without sight of her. hmm... i dont know if i want to invest emotion into anyone. she seems worth the risk though. i guess that's what really matters. if you're willing to run the risk of getting crushed something really good could probably come out of it. i need sleep. i wonder where kristen is. i'm pretty sure i know where she is; though, i'm scared to call. i dont think i should. for his sake.