OK umm so0o things are like ok wit school my classes kinda sux but fuck that!!! i have so0o many problems goin on right now n like u cant tell cuz i cover them up 2 well but AHHHH todaii at like 6 i an into mai closet put on song and was on the floor cryin i just couldnt talk it nemore!!!!! I HATE EVEYYTHING RIGHT NOW... so0o i was friends wiff this one guy and me and him like i had fun wiff him and I TOLD me everything and wen we came home frum camp he kinda changed so0o im not hangin out wiff him and he told my friend tat i changed, i used him i hate him and i dont hang out wif him.. but like all last week i was like not talkin 2 him and like screw him wutever hes gay but wen i think of memories and ALL the pictures i cry so0o much like every night and like 2 other guys sed i chaged a lot n mean shit and i cryed bout that cuz like it will never be the same and it was amazin like how great every1 was! and like my dad is a total jerk i cant stand him UH i just wanna get drunk and make him like uhhh i hate him!!! but yea so0o i had thiz thing on saturday and he totally forgot n wut mai dreams and wut i waant he doesnt care for that cuz he doesnt belvev in my dreams i hate him!! uh i realli wanna make him mad n like get high n drunk and UHHHHHHHHHH fuck HIMMM!!!!!!!!!!!!!! like itz sumthing like thats all i want and hes a jerk and i wish...i would be happie i fuckin never am!! im so0o stresses like i cant have fun and i worrie about things and wut people think about me and all thiz shit FUCKKK i wanna like just move 2 l.a and leave thiz fuckin place o yea mai fuckin ass hole dad was all like yea were goin 2 l.a and like promsin me that and now hes all like well... i hate that mutha fucker!!!! well peace! juliaa