"her little cousin just passed out on the lawn" yes yes yes. umm so whats up. im not feelin so great. no my nose isn't runny, no my head doesn't hurt, no im not gunna barf: my heart hurts. :-( i miss nick and allen. too much. way too much. i wish i could have gone home with them. i hate it here. i just wanna go away. Corey isn't being the same. and i hate him for it. he's not looking at me the same. his hugs aren't the same and there aren't as many kisses. and he got really pissed at me for talking about nick and allen the other day. i was really hurt. he completely got up and walked off. i don't know why he got mad??? and then after that he was walking towards me and then all the sudden tanner walked up and wispered that he passed the test that i helped him with. (so now he can try out for spring sports, thats the first time i've ever done that for someone)i was so happy! i jumped and gave him a big hug and corey saw it. he didn't even give me a chance to tell him why i hugged tanner. i mean he certainly shouldn't be jealous over that. i mean Corey should know how i feel about him. i dunno, maybe i should just not talk about them around him. but thats sorta not fair for me ya know? i dont know. maybe tomorrow will be ok. since i have to go to school and everything. AH!! i hate it. i am so pissed at everyone. me and mandy are. it seems like whenever someone says something i just wanna smash their head into the wall. i need a break. a serious break. fuck everyone fuck them. i am so sick of everything. corey please forgive me. i really don't want you to be mad at me. whatever