i am oh so bored. totally -- i never thought i'd actually be at home alone on a friday night. see, i would normally be pissed, but im too bored right now to be anything but hungry - if that makes any sense at all. SAVE ME!! i talked to drew earlier today. doin well. i miss that kid. we had fun when he surprised me with a visit!! he just showed up and i didn't know what to do with myself i was so excited. he looks cuter than ever, his hair has gotten longer and (it may just be me) he looks a little taller even. and a whole lot more toned. mmhm. thats my drew. what all did we do?...lets see he took me to lunch, umm we hung out with everybody. then we hung out just the 2 of us. me and drew reunited. it happened again: we were sitting behind my house and his old house and we were just talking. he turned to me and starting saying how much he really truly misses me. he misses just having me around and to talk to and to see everyday. it was so sweet. and then he said that hes been with a few girls from his new school and the only thing he has found out is how much he still feels for me. lemme tell ya: i was absolutely stunned. i had no idea what to say. cause like all this crap has gone on since drew left - like me and corey are over :-(, and now jesse has come along and all this stuff. and i really miss him too. i guess what im tryin to say is it took us this long to figure out that we want each other. no one else. i mean jesse is great and everything but hes not what i want right now, and sure i miss corey - after being that long and involved any girl would!! but drew. theres just something about that kid that i just love to death, and im starting to see it, he sees me as a more than just a girl he can get his hands on...he sees me as MJ "the girl next door". haha. fits nicely, yeah? but i don't know. oh yeah, and we kissed again. i think thats a pretty big signal to us. i hated to see him go, but i guess this way we can really see if we were meant to be together......<3333