I have had this diary since August 25, 2004. It seems like yesterday. I've been a member of this site since December 11, 2003. Two years of blogging and I'm proud of myself. But this diary isn't for this kind of thing. So, I'm watching I Heart Huckabees and I love it and I love the idea that I understand it and find it hilarious and touching (and everything) and other people just don't get it. The fact that people walked out of the screening of this is amazing to me. I'm feeling all whirly-twirly tonight and I wish I hadn't fucked everything up so royally and I wonder what ever happened to responsibilty in advertising like why is it okay to show gratuitious violence and sexual content during the day on commercials? I mean, I like violence and sex as much as the next girl but I don't like it for the youth of the world. What messages are we sending out? That no matter how far we've come, women are still (STILL!) just pretty faces with no real identities. And it's okay to do whatever you want as long as your getting what you want. And eating grease and fat will make you happy and remind you that you are part of the human race. And that materialism is an admirable quality. Corporate America is disgusting. DISGUSTING. They are using you and you are letting them and you are liking it even though it is killing you. Our society is enabling murderers, extortionists, and liars and I am a part of it as well as you and I can't change it. And you can't change it but if you and I and that person over there shared something and felt something together and we told it to some one else who cared then maybe we made a difference and maybe we left a mark and maybe our existances aren't totally wasted on us.