so its threefortynine am. and rollin ahs turned me into a nightowl:)...not like i wasnt before...but...i dont normally computerize at this time...anyways...this is when my demons come out...when i have time to think...i just need to keep busy. i like this whole secretive diary thing...no one knows how i really feel. its BeeAyeYOOteaUS!...ha i love that. i feel insulted...rollin thinks his girlfriends hotter than LM*gasp* shocking, i know...Hebrew...Rocks. why isnt there a hebrew class at my school? id sign up!...i mean, c'mon!...yeah theres a lotta '...'s going on here...but yeah...you know what really made me miffed was when justin told Jake he'd call me later...which he did. then i spent a whole fifteen minutes talking to him...:(*sadness*...oh, well..he said he might likeme as more than a friend and asked if i felt the same...but i dont know if i do...its hard to feel that way about any guy...because im emotionally unstable. and i know it and im okay with that. but..its just hard. i need to sort things through...and thats where this diary comes in handy...i actually was wondering the other day how it felt taht no one read your diary...but i like it...its more private and...no one really knows...