Comer is real. is justin real? ive never seen him ive never touched him. Comer, ive touched, seen, smelt, hugged...i KNOW he exsists, not that im thinking justins a figment of my imagination. because im pretty sure figments of my imagination don't call me and talk to me. but its so hard, ive known him for like five months. and i like him. but. it can't happen. im not in any place for a relationship, especailly a long distance one. And he's not either, with his girlfriend and all, so should i just give up? i've waitied so long,and i want this more than anything, but i'm sick of waiting...its so hard not to blame him..but now, im afraid. i cant let him go.im cying as i write this. we have been such a disaster from the start. Comer's hugged me, let me fall asleep with him, held me, played with my hair. i mean, i know he's here. its hard oh so effing hard. i dont ever want to give up justin. ever. but it could never work. i dont know. i hate this. im such a disaster.