You know why i cant put a mood up there? because theres so many running through me...and yes, it is that time of month, so thats part of it...but.... i feel... TIRED-got like...three hours of sleep last night because steph and polo were here, then decided itd be a genius idea to stay up till three editing myspace...(http://myspace.com/mywardrobeisblack...check it out...see what took me so long!) then i was gonna get up and go to church but decided against it because i felt sick...mom then decided itd be a wonderful idea to go school picture shopping....so we did that for nine hours.... FRUSTERATED-my computer is being...just...plain old dumb...it keeps siging me out of msn explorer and just...angers me..and it has a crapola load of spyware...so thats justwonderful...and id use the laptop but that moves slower than my uncles dead grandma riding a dead snail.....so thats my computer problems... LEFTOUT-I barely ever talk to my friends from willmar anymore, with the exception of Alana Sarah and Joanna, i have talked to no one from willmar for at least two weeks. and then, I talked to Joanna on the phone this afternoon and i guess Jenna's had herself a little get together...and dont get me wrong thats effing great...seriously, i hoped some of my friends would hang out together this summer..but...and no, I DONT EXPECT TO GET INVITED....which leads me to... LONELY-i know a total of four people here...Alyssa, who ive hung out with a few times and absolutely adore, its just...shes madis age, and doesnt go to my school....Stefan, who...i've talked to a total of once in like...May, and he goes to my church...Chelsea, who i talked to in May with Stefan and also goes to my church...and Chelsey...who also goes to my church and is my age...and i think in my band....they're all really nice and all... but i dont feel like...they really like me...well, Chelsea and Stefan i dont expect to remember me, but Chelsey and i have about the same taste in music....and Alyssa, well if she doesnt like me too dang bad, i like her! And...I will know ABSOLUTELY NO ONE at school...which, i admit, will make me feel even worse, seeming...im so used to being around my friends...it'll almost be uber-uncomfortable... and im over with how i feel... TOMORROW IS SCHOOL PICTURES and im not really looking forward to it very much... normally Joanna and i go to them together, get our pics taken together and compare schedules...we'd have at least one class together this year...first block band and choir(id have the extra op of orchestra...)*tear*...LIFE IS SO UNFAIR