i hate feeling this way how nothings yet happened adn now i feel as though my souls been blown away and its loafing around on a barrier reef. its so strange how i can sit in a room adn think of nothing and tears rise to my eyes. I can't blame C for ditching me. I'd ditch her as well if it were me. I hate being selfish, but she's the only one i can talk to. I mean there's things i cant tell her but i do understand. now i know how it feels. i didnt it with A and now its my turn to feel how i made them feel. Pastor Jeff made me feel as though I was a criminal...ughh.