Blood Drive Ahh So Today was the blood drive at school and if you're in NHS you get to help.. Soo me and Amber ended up helping out wherever they needed us all day.. We ended up mostly being moral support for people who gave.. I got to talk to Ashlee, Joe, Pepe, Steph, and Adam when they were giving blood..i woulda gave but im not 17 yet..soo next school year I can give for both of them... Yay! English I got my english speech over with today.. It was supposed to be a "How-To" speech that lasted 10-15 minutes.. Soo YEah I looked thru pampered chef books and found Taffy Apple Pizza which is like a suagr cookie w/ caramel and pnut butter and apples and such on it.. It did last 10 minutes, I didn't shake at all, and everybody that wanted some actually liked it..It was meant to serve 10 and I made it serve 21 lol...Yeah Small pieces, but NOW I dont have to do anything in english for the rest of the year, except watch other people give speeches..I'm so glad I got it over with.. Selfish My dad's a selfish jackass. He called me to tell me he got a new job, in Iraq. NOT to fight in the War mind you..just a civilian job that needs military background.. He's such an asshole I swear.. He thinks it's GOOd becuz it pays a lot of money (supposedly) and he gets to come home 1 week every 6 months..yeah real fuckin good.. So he's leavin Lorraine and the boys here..and yeah just leaving with his dad and my other gfather in the medical problems theyre having... and yeh.. I dunno what to think. Cuz I dont see him that much anyway, but I know hes always right there..and now he wont be.. Makes me think of how much time I couldve spent with him...but I guess I was always scared he'd dissapoint me, or leave..and he's doing both at the moment.. Soo Yeah I dunno if Im at fault or he is..or maybe its nobodys fault and we're just meant to have a fucked up relationship.. I dunno... but it makes me think of what I couldve done to make things better.. Im not goin to school tomorrow even though we're not goin to prom and I dont NEED to go to the spa or w/e..my mom decided after hearing what my dad had to say, I needed a day away from school and such.. I know health hasnt been the best in my family lately, and lately iv been dealing with it well..but with my dad just leaving? Ugh...and my brother didnt even bother to tell me... hes an ass too.. theres so much more I could say about it, but Im too frustrated and tryin to sort out thoughts..I'll have to add more bout it later.. H2O Im so fucking thirsty right now.. I need H2O badly...If only I wasnt tooo damn lazy to go get some... Ahh maybe I will.. Goodbye All.