okay, i'm back. i'll just make my diary friends only so jeffers can't read it. i feel so violated, i know it's dumb, but he found my diary the day I made it and read everything. I didn't want anyone I knew to read it yet. boo. so, i have a huge procrastination problem. It's causing me to get stressed out in school. I have no motivation to do or fix any of this. The only good thing that has happened is i just got my sandals from urban outfitters in the mail and i love them ^__^ ... i think i just need some new clothes. and i want to learn how to sew. yep. i cannot wait until i go back to texas. christ. it's my birthday present. however, i don't get any spending money which sucks since i wanted to go to urban outfitters and some vintage shops. I'm going down the 22nd on november and my birthday is the 23rd. i'm staying for a week and it's going to be such a vacation. i get to see jason who i miss a ton. I just need to concentrate on something. i should probably ask someone to break my computer, it takes up too much of my time. tonight i'm going to another football game where i don't watch football. i just am there, by myself usually. if i had some chronic i would hit that shit. but i don't. and i want to stop that. where is my backbone?