i hate winter. it makes me depressed. i think i have seasonal something disorder or whatever its called. i read about it in a magazine. the cold air wind makes me sleepy. and its all i want to do. sleep is nice. st nick came last night (dutch tradition or something) and in my stocking i recieved: mall giftcard ($50) starbucks giftcard ($15) ornaments life savor gummies. fruit and candy canes. it was a good morning. hehe. ive had a lot of thinking to do. about relationships. and i think im handeling it well. i need to lose weight. mk bye.