I need to be independent and finally stand up. I've fallen down and I'm the middle of standing up and just staying down. I need to stand up. I know I can do it, I have the strength to do it. But everything tell me to be scared. Maybe it's just my mind telling me that I've already been hurt. But I don't care, I want to live again. I don't want to be in this limbo. I don't want to think that everyone would forget me if I just left. Those aren't pretty thoughts. I want to be spontaneous, random, happy, and loved. I fuck wantinggg. I'm doing it. :]