Roller Coaster. That's how everything is. Everything has a climax and then it drops to the floor to give you the scare of your life, until the next drop. It's sorta how I am with boys, we have a climax of talking and feelings, but then I turn away and it's over. Yesterday I saw an ex-boy and I was nervous. Shaky. Forgetting to think. Forgetting to say anything and I didn't understand. We hadn't dated that long. But we just broke up because we were unable to see each other. I didn't try hard enough. I don't know if I want a chance, I don't know if there will be one if I want one. I'm just waiting for the roller coaster to star again because I don't know what's coming.