is there a reason for all of this? I just really don't understand it Everything has gone to shit. It's so unbearable... Ahh. I wish i could curl up in my room with... well... yeah... OTHER Than him... curl up in my room with chocolate and my charlie and a blanket and just read write sleep and cry. That sounds just to freaking good right now. I can already feel the tears welling up. I choked myself with a blanket today too. when I let the oxygen rush back to my head I got so dizzy it was a nice 15 second buzz. So I did it again. I'm sure if I keep doing it i will eventually cause serious damage. I was up all night with the fucking storms i am so sleepy.