so... i did talk to him. i mean.. it is better than i expected... to a certain degree... but, at the same time, none of my questions were answered...
Wallakwalla: so... did you read?
Zerosforgotten: ?????
Wallakwalla: the other thing I wrote...?
Zerosforgotten: ???
Wallakwalla: do you really not know?
Zerosforgotten: whatcha mean shes not the only one who likes me?
wallakwalla: i thought you would have gotten it... but she's not.
Zerosforgotten: whos the other people(s)
wallakwalla: i dont know if there's plural... but in all retardedness, there's me.
wallakwalla: that likes you.
Zerosforgotten: you like me still?
wallakwalla: again. i think... yes.
wallakwalla: not still
wallakwalla: and, i know you say you can't feel, so it's pointless, really... but i do.
Zerosforgotten: ...I neva would a thought it
wallakwalla: you're serious...?
Zerosforgotten: yup.I nevea would a thoguht it
wallakwalla: well... surprise then i guess.
Zerosforgotten: http://newgrounds.com/portal/view/206373
wallakwalla: lets see if it'll load today...
wallakwalla: but, um, do you have anything else to say to... the other thing..?
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yeah.. right after i sent that the computer booted me and by the time i got back on and logged in and everything, he was gone. not just blocked me or invisible.. but totally gone. signed off. well then... i got off and took a bit of a nap. no dreams. t/g in a way, but in another way... sob. then as we were leaving to go to din din, arjay starts texting me.
arjay: o thats ok. i keep forgetting it's friday. maybe i will call jordan. hmmmm
(i forgot alot of the things i said because unlike my old phone, you must instruct my new one to save outgoing messages so i will just put all of her messages with "/" between them.)
/call him and tell him to sign on. i need to talk to him about paul/no. i just wanted to ask him a question but "he's up to his moms" alright thank you :click from jordan's dad: i feel bad about something else tho/i called just barely. out of nowhere me n jordan did stuff. which is WORSE n i wanted to gell him never again bcoz i like paul/later. after. but i was the one who walked away. i made him stop when i realized i really did. and i like paul not jordan so i dont.../know where it came from when it happened.../yeah and i'm sorry coz i dont know HOW it happened. it just DID. but i left when i realized. so i am proud of myself. but i feel bad coz i like paul./and because YOU like jordan and i DONT like him./he kissed me. i had been talking to paul about wanting to make out with him. jordan started acting like he had to talk to me and sent paul away.../so i thought he was just gonna talk to me, but then he was kissing me. but then i realized what was happening and that it was JORDAN and so i left./yea wanting to make out with paul./ew hell no. NO TONGUE!!!/o. he didnt' tell u online? wat a prik. but i am sorry it happened. not just for my reason but coz you like him but i left so at least i did stop it./that he kissed me. you dont need to be jealous. it was not something i particularly wanted./ all he said was he would have never guesed/ oh strange lol. anyways i dont know WHAT jordan was thinking but i know that he obviously knew paul would be upset./no i dont. i kno he didn't read it on the bus bcoz he was reading my perverted yearbook. maybe he decided to coz of my yrbook. i have no clue why he did./ok bye then.
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so yeah.... and i havent heard from either of them since the times i last received messages from him. well i'm not going to night games. oh well. as said above i'm sure hed rather kiss arjay. but... it happened before he UNDERSTOOD that i like him... so i dont kow... maybe i changed something. i dont know. next time he gets on i am asking. god... and then what i heard jackie say. today has been fully confusing. god... i want him so bad. and yes, it is something for ME to be jealous of, because i'm the one who's head over heels for him and i'm not hte one who thinks hes a bad kisser. i think he is a very GOOD kisser... so yes... i WILL be jealous. cry... i want good dreams. i will have all day tomorrow(until 5) to talk to either of them if they get on. god this is bothering me so bad.