i am minorly confused. yesterday was fairly good. i get annoyed so bad when he acts different to me because arjay is around... it... gets on my nerves. so... technical last day of school for me and it has also been... ok. promo practice was really lame. went to taco bell w/ arjay and tasha. then we walked to jordans house and tried to creep him out. went upstairs in his room, he met marius(arjay's bear) and gave the ponies back. arjay thought his room was lame and hot.(temp wise) then she looked at his guns/knives and played w/ one of his bb guns. i felt REALLY REALLY weird being there... for obvious... clear reasons... and yet strangely comfortable. until tasha told me to ask them to put the guns away and i sat downstairs and talked to her while she went up in his room w/ him. i heard many bed squeaks and arjay laugh once. i felt really weird.. and then tasha told me why she is scared of guns(her grandpa held one to her head threatening to shoot). so between that and them bieng in his room... ALONE both of them KNOWING how i feel about him... i got a little mad. so i told arjay and asked her what they WERE doing.. but.. yeah. mom is getting home soon... and i don't know if she told me i could get back on or not. oh well. she asked me when we got back from conoco"are you gonna be off for a few minutes?" so oh well. im' staying. i want so bad to ask him if he was uncomfortable... what arjay and him really did well shes on now so i'll talk at her i guess...