......My, oh how I have changed over the last three to five years. I love remembering middle school, and all of the stupid things I have done and said. My first year of high school may have been the best year so far...but i'm sure that at that time, I did not think that it would have been. I look at myself today...God have I changed. Ups and Downs. In 9th grade, everything was new...new people, new school, new surroundings. Towards the end of 9th grade, I was so depressed. I kept worrying (and still do) worry about getting to the point where I am overweight. For some reason, I find myself wishing that I was underweight or almost average. Just not average. I am not even close to overweight though. Now That I am a Junior in High School, I feel myself building that confidence up. I don't measure myself in the mirror as much. I look in the mirror and smile, because I am happy with myself. Yeah..blah, blah, blah...I know. But I feel so much better. I have mixed emotions about being a Senior next year. I wish I'd done so much more in these past years...I wish I didn't let the small things bother me and hold me back. I guess this is all a part of growing up. Last year, I recall myself...saying "I hate my life" just about everyday. Today, I feel like saying the opposite. Hopefully things stay this way...I'm going to ignore the things I think people are saying about me. I don't care anymore. I walk down the street or hall with confidence now...I'm moving on.