i shopped today. its bad how instantly happy that can make me when im depressed. hungout with jackie.we went to the fortville park.we swung(swang?). i like that place.its our new hangout.ha.we will have a party there soon. by party i mean alcohol and boys. came back to her house rache came over. we watched about the history of porn of vh1 very entertaining. i hate being semi-grounded.eleven o'clock is extremely early. its hurts to hold on, but its missed when its gone. school starts sooner than id like to say out loud or type.there is so much to do.im not ready.im not ready for anything ever though. i want to visit my table at starbucks. i wish there was something i could say that could make it better. im over using the change color thing. --- does anyone else cough until they think they'll through up??rache gave me pills but they arent working..this has been going on all summer.i dont know what is wrong with me.