there are 48 days til spring. i think. i am in a shitty mood. february is a shitty month. valentines is a shitty holiday. made shittier by the fact that i secretly wish i had someone to share it with. and i keep hoping, in spite of myself, that a certain boy will suprise me with...cupcakes or something. then i get even more disappointed and disgusted with myself and become bitter and cynical. i am seeing a movie tonight, for free, with my valentine and her family.haha my mom made pot roast for dinner. you probably dont understand how amazing and weird that is.