either i am dying or i am getting a cold. ap lit test thursday. sat saturday. fun week. my parents accidentally put $500 in my savings account. i got excited when i saw it in there since i have had less than $5 in it since march, but they are taking it out tomorrow. i really don't want this school year to end. i hate saying that but it is so scary. i don't want the seniors to graduate because for one it means there even fewer boy oppurtunities for cami (not that it really makes a difference sadly), and it also means i am a senior. i have no more time to bring up my grades or do anyhting else i had hoped to do before graduating. i am terrified of ending up at an in state college like iu because i am afraid if i don't get out of here now, i never will. and what if i make the wrong decision about college/ my major? that could ruin my enitre life.... anyway. i learned today it is not good to joke about suicide when my parents think i am depressed (which i am not).maybe i should just not joke about suicide. most people don't find it funny. i wish i could have met and married young bob dylan.