So i havent been on here in a while to update, but popular demand brought me here now. I'm tired of some things and have wanted to restart for a while now so i think its the best thing to do right now. who knows what will happen, maybe ill realize that its ok how it is now, or maybe i will never be the sam, but thats how shit is right now so if you dont here from me for a few days, im takeing the cards advice and thinking and figureing out what im going to do about things. Ben P.S. i'm changing my e-mail and maybe my diary.