Hey well not to much going on these days. Second last day of school. Yay! I didn't even show up yesterday cuz I slept all day. My friend Ange came over on the weekend and we watched movies and went to steinbach and dyed our hair. It was pretty fun. Yea, my hair is red. It's not permanent though. It washes out in like 8-10 washes. But it's sort of red. Yay! So things are okay I suppose. I can't wait till the break. I hate this fuckin school. It's so gay. I didn't go to any classes yet which is like only one. The one I have right now would be my first class of the day and it started at 10:50am and it is now 11:30am. yep I'm feeling lazy and we aren't doing anything anyways just finishing up on some work that was already assigned that I've done already. It's so slack here it's probly like sharp in wpg. lol can't get out of here now..lol I'm probly going to winnipeg tomorrow with ange and pat. I can't drive by myself. Man, that sucks. So pat's going to take us in cuz we want to see a movie and some other person might come too. I want to see King Kong!!! I'm so excited!! Yay! I want to see it so bad!!!! can't you tell??!! hehehehe!! I have to pee! and then I want a smoke. So later. Later on.....K this day was not as bad as I thought it would be. Well things were going fine and all but then it had to be ruined. RUINED!!!! I was all talking to people and shit. Then I was in the cafe and was trying to do do "homework" when this girl read me my horescope and it was totally true about me and made me so depressed I was like OMG I AM LIKE THAT! It was so scary and I felt like I had to go home or something and sleep it off and maybe then I would feel better. I feel like sleeping anyway but yea...I can't wait to get home I'm so fucking tired. I need to learn to let things go I guess. I cnat let go that's my problem. Laura S. to tell you the truth I can't really remember how that fight happened I was even trying to remember with Laura H. that time I was at her place and I sort of remember not all the details. I don't know why I did that to you. I was having a hardf time as you well know and I didn't know what to do with myself. I didn't know what was happening to me. I was scared and I think we shouldn't dwell on that. I think I was a different person back then and now it seems like I was never depressed it's weird to think about it. It seems like it happened so long ago. Like I'm watching myself but it didnt happen I dont know how to explain it. I feel like I've been through so mush and changed so many times I should be like 30 already. It's weird. I'm sorry. I don't like being mad. It's the angry people that are the most afraid and I believe that. I can't be angry cuz then I get scared and I hate being scared because I feel helpless and so on and it's just not really a good feeling. I've moved on and I hope you can too, but fell free to tell me everything I did wrong so I know. Love Nathalie