TWELVE CONFESSIONS. 1. List 12 things that you want to say to people, but never will. 2. Don't say who they are. 3. Never discuss it again Because everytime I see one of these things I think of things I need to say so here it goes. And just to inform everyone they are in random order. 1. Where do I start, I used to think you were the most annoying person ever until that fateful day when you came over asking to play with chalk. We've been inseperable since then and like.. I seriously don't know what I would do without your friendship. No matter what we can ALWAYS talk to each other about anything. Not long ago we had our first and hopefully only argument ever and we promised that we would never let anything come between us again. I will always be sorry for what I did to you because you have done nothing to me but be my friend and I really can't ask for anything more then that. We have known each other forever and I really don't want that to change. I love you more then anyone and I basically consider you to be my sister because you are the only one of my friends that I can consider that. 2. Well Well Well I havn't thought of you in a while but everytime I go to my Nana's house I think about going over and ringing your doorbell. I miss you .. probably more then you miss me but that's okay. I still have our memories and such. But although there was no screaming "I HATE YOU" fights and I know I sound like a bitch because I am saying this but you and I both know that it was your fault, you were the one that never payed any attention to me when your other friends were around. I'm sorry for saying that but it's true. I still wish we were friends because you were awesome to be around and I'll never forget any of those times. Basically we grew up together and that's like impossible to replace memory wise although you have probably tried your hardest to forget everything that involbes me. I have no reason to forgive you for what you did. 3. I just met you this year but like honestly you are one of the funniest people I have ever met in my life. Although it was sort of akward at first it definetly is not right now. Our hangouts are the best and I can't even begin to describe how much you make me smile. You mean so much and you are always there for me no matter what I am bullshitting over and you tell me stories which i love. I LOVE YOU!!!! How are you? 4. This is probably going to be my largest confession of them all so here it goes. I picked this number for a reason as well because it's a number we share in a way. Where do I begin? We were each other's very first best friend and we were that way for the longest time. I had some of the funnest and most memorable times with you from playing in the snow to playing mario party and staying up all night talking and laughing so hard at the most random things that weren't even funny when I think of it now. Way back when.. countless times.. we always promised each other that no matter what we were going to be friends but its obvious that that wasn't true and I am 100o blame for that. I am sorry for not replying to the note you gave me after everything happened. It was one of the biggest regrets of my life because it ended a friendship that meant so much to both of us. You don't understand how sorry I am for everytime I was a bitch to you because I know most of the time I was controlling and there was so many times were I bet you hated me but you never even began to hate me. We had our arguments and disagreements but they always worked out except for this one. I wish I had you to talk to still and I hope that someday you will forgive me for being so naive and a coward for not admitting that i was my fault this all happened. I love you hun, I still consider you one of my best friends ever. 5. You are the biggest asshole I have ever known and yet you are still one of my best friends. You have pissed me off to the point where I wanted you to just get out of my life and we have had our moments were are hands are around each others throats. But we have still had our moments that are unforgetable. You are hilarious to be around and you aren't afraid to tell me when I am being an idiot. You are the only person that has really truly gotten to me with teasing and I give you credit for that. To tell you the truth you were the first new friend I made in highschool and hopefully we will be friends for a long time to come. 6. Okay basically you are one of the few people that have been there for me forever. We have been friends since primary school and I can;t even begin to tell you how incredibly stupid you are, yet you are the smartest person I know. No matter what shit I've gotten myself into and no matter whos mad at me you were always there and you always kept me down to earth. You always know when something is wrong and I can't thank you enough for telling me when I've done or when I am doing something that could potentially hurt. You gotten annoyed at me and I am sorry for the things I have done to do that, but even though those things have happened we always become friends again. I lovee youuuu so muchhhh and no matter what we will always be friends I hope. 7. Hm. I really don't know what to say but thank you for being my friend and thank you for always being there when I needed one. The times we spent together were the some of the best times ever. Although for a few years in there we grew apart but once highschool started we became close again. You were always there no matter what and I just want to say thank you for that. I realized how much our friendship means too me when I had to make the hardest decision I ever had to make and to know that you cared and wanted to know that I was alright because you were there when I found out. You know you have best friends that come and go but you always have those few friends that have always been there and always will be there.. you are one of those friends. 8. You. Where do I begin to describe our friendship. I have know you for a few years and yet it seems like it's been forever. You made my middle school years the best ones they could be and I am pretty sure you were the only person that has ever made me pee myself laughing... gross but true. I can always go to you and complain when I have to and I am always there when you need to tell me something. You keep my secrets safe and I think you know pretty much everything. I don't know what I would do without you and you are one of my best friends. I love you babe. 9. Okay. You basically showed me that I can love someone without having second thoughts. Even though we have had some of the biggest fights that most people usualy lose someone over.. it's never truly been 'over' between us. What you did to me hurt me more then anyone has ever hurt me before but I have forgiven you completely because I know and I trust that you will never do something like that to me again. I can';t beleive that it's been over a year and even though we weren;t always together I still consider you one of my best friends. Which you are no doubtly. You taught me how to not be so naive when it comes to dealing with others and you were one of the only people who I trusted as soon as I started talking to them. I know you are always there for me no matter what and I know you will always help me no matter what stupid things I do and I know that you will always love me. I hope you know that I feel the same about you. Don't ever let that change. I don't know what I would do without you. 10. The first person I ever laid eyes on.. literally. Although I felt sometimes I hated you.. I realize now that everything you have done was for my own good and everything you do is for me and I don't know what I would do without you. Somtimes I take you for granted even though I know I shouldn't and sometimes I wish I could let you know how much I truly love you. Friends come and go but you are always going to be there. You are my best friend and someone who I can trust to help me make the right decisions in life. Every step I have taken you have been there and everytime I fell you are always there to pick me up and get me going again. I couldn't ask anything more from you because you are the best mother a girl could ask for. I am not ashamed to say you are the best one ever and I am not ashamed to hold your hand or give you a hug in front of everyone. If I lost you I would literally kill my self.. in all seriousness. I really can't see my life without you.. I love you. 11. In all seriousness I havn't known you that long and I am not one to judge people but I know enough about you to prove that what I am about to say is true. You creep me out basically. You tore our group apart. You know you did even if you try to deny it. Everyone thinks the same thing.. well most people at least.. that you creep all of us out so it's not just me.. I'm just the only one who has the guts to say it and I'm not even mentioning your name but if you read this I am pretty sure you'll realize what number you are. We can forgive him for what he did because we know eventually he will get over it because we have known him longer then we have known you... but how can we be so sure that you won't do something like this again? Only next time it will be worse. You exaggerate things to the point where I can't even fucking stand it.. you just don't have the balls to realize that it was your fault and you don't have the balls either to admit. You change stories around to get sympathy and then you try and get outsiders involved when they really don't need to be. To tell you the truth I'm not even involved but I am involved as a whole meaning that I am involved in the problem that you tore the best group of friends I could ever ask for in two and don't try to deny it. I'm not trying to fucking start shit but like this needs to be said. This probably will start some drama but I don't give a fuck, it's my opinion. 12. Basically you scared the shit out of me when I was trying to be honest with you. You were the only guy that I have ever been scared that he would hit me and mean it. I'm sorry that I felt that way but it just didn't compare to something else and you basically don't know what you are doing. I'm sorry for telling you the god's honest truth. ♥ And These Are My Confessions