i did it i talked to him but not through me through my friend i was just afraid of what he'd say so i let her tell me later on lessen the hope maybe? its okay i'm okay i wasnt but i am now. talked to my other close friend and she filled me with hope *thank you* she told me that he needed to sort out his feelings. i agree, i dont need him. then she told me someday i will find someone i will find someone but i suppose not at this moment i need more selfconfidence