here i am thinking to myself reflecting its all i have to do i keep reminding myself of the good and the bad weighing it all deciding whether or not i should just let go let go of all concious thought just let myself like him monday will decide for me if he comes at all if we can commence conversation not just the small talk ive dreamed of this day the day where i am with him alone just hanging out i can hold his hand that is all and know that i might have a chance but as of now my chances are uncertain i cannot even guess so right now ill wait for monday...