by faiith09
Listening to: *NoNe**
Feeling: confuzzled
Yea well got in another fight with Cc AGAIN.. idk why but it seems like anymore we fight like constantly.. and idk why all i kno is its totally pissing me off.. she is the first friend that i have ever fought with thys much.. i mean i love thys gurl to fucking peices i swear.. but ppl try to split us up.. dunno why but thats everyones rutine.. to interfer with other ppls lives! its really getten to me..cuz like ppl tell me shyt..and then tell her shyt.. and idk what to do anymore.... i try to talk to her and she ends up given me attitude..!! So i flip...yea i have a low slef esteem i kno..but i try to hold it back. just sumtimes i dont succeed.. i really cant hold back feelings. Im so used to saying how i feel.And right now i cant take much.. i mean like usuall me and my mom are fighting.. yeah now she's talking to me about moving and i dont wanna lose the friends i have here but ya kno sense cc and i are getten in so many fights i wonder if it's fer the best.. even though i have mike to worry and leave if i go..plus terry.. but ya kno what if thys shyt is going to proceed i mean i just cant take it all in once.. im worried about my grades.. me and my mom AND dad are arguing..now cc...so ya kno thats like my life right there!I hate the fact that i dont kno who to trust anymore..except that one person.. u kno who u r..... grr i cant stop thinking about it.. my mom wants to move back to connecticut..yea i miss my friends there of course... but i have mike here..even though my mom hates him with a passion..and i dont wanna leave the friends i have here but sense ppl like to start fights idk what to do and sense im only 15 i dont have a say really... and i dont kno how to to releive my anger anymore i really dont... i mean im not really the type to hold everything back until it goes to far but latly if i show how i feel i get in a fight with sumone and end up bein called a bitch..well im sry but thats how i feel... and i cant understand why ppl cant understand that..instead i get called names?? Ya kno maybe moving would be the best thing now that i get to thinken.... i mean cc wouldnt really mind she has cassie...and i kno i would like die but she seems as though she can manage ya kno...and then there's mike i love him So much but im realizing that my mom isnt gunna just let it go what happened..which might i add is a stupid reason!! And then there's terry.. well terry seems to be someone i can trust and sumone who i see as a great friend.And if ANYONE and I mean ANYONE has anything to say about him I DARE YOU to fucking say aumthing bad about him..cuz seriously it gets to me.. obviously ppl cant see who is and who isnt a real friend.. one last tyme u have sumthing bad to say about him fucking come to me instead of being a pussy and sayen it behind his back.. idk why it gets me pissed but it does..!!! Yeah and tjose are like the real reasons why i dont want to leave..besides leavign my brothers.. O GODD that just came to me..FUCK.....!!! i dont kno what to do anymore.. i just wanna.. idk but if anyone has a way that i can get rid of thys.. i've tried numerous things so if anyone has addvice id be more than happy to hear it..
Well i guess im done for now..
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sorry ran out of chariters(however you spell it)