so ive spent the weekend with jessica. fun fun. jeff, jessica, kirt, angel, cole, and jcord are here. carlos called and kirt handed me the phone and was like he wants to talk to you. i almost cried. it really just hit that hes gone. he said he misses my basement and im like the next time you come down well have a get together and hes like yeah and have another round of spin the bottle and im like haha yeah for sure. and before i handed the phone to angel im like well i miss you so much and i love you and hes like i know i miss you SO much and thats when i started to almost cry. :(