so lately ive been hanging out with someone and well i realized that im not afraid of him which is probably one of the things thats drawing me towards him. all my life every guy that has come in to my life ive been scared of in someway. with my hearts keeper its not nessicary scared of him its scared of lossing him.. so scared that im scared to act on my feelings. but with this kid im not scared of anything like that its as if i dont knowif it happens it happens if it doesnt it doesnt and im ok with that. the other night i was with a boy that tore my heart to shreads about a year ago and ithougth that i could never look at him with any thougth of forgiveness in my head. but i do forgive him and its makes me feel better. we had fun the other night and the three of us just sat in my car and talked for about 2 hours with the heartbreaker in the front and me and the boy that doesnt scared me in the back. just talking. it made me feel some relief in my life... maybe something new is what i need.. a breath of fresh air. and color the coast with your smile its the most genuine thing that ive ever seen i was so lost but now i believe