Hidden Behind A Broken Smile

by heartinflamesxx
Feeling: lousy
This morning i slept in and had like 20 minutes to get ready for school and my hair was bleh cuz i took a shower the nite before and slept when it was wet so i had to take the fasted shower ever known to man kind. School wasnt that bad i guess. its boring as always but what else is new. my life is becoming boring it use to be so fun for a while but i dont know what happened. Sometimes it seems like im forced to hide my tears with a broken smile because im afraid of what people will think if they only knew... maybe im afraid that no one will care or maybe im just afraid that people will care to much and make a big deal about it i dont know. I always keeping EVERYTHING locked inside hoping that it will just go away. Im tired of always crying myself to sleep everynite and writting sucidial poems about lost love and wanting to die. I miss who i was before and im afraid that im in to deep and i will never be that person again. Trapped forever in my twisted thoughts and lost in the darkness searching for the light falling forever. am i the only one who feels this way?... -Lindz
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i see a donnie darko quote. Thats my favouite movie so far. And ive seen a lot of movies
[Anonymous]
hey hey hey now...dont think that way. You get better. You do. i Promise. you just have to help yourself out...i was EXACTLY like you. i even think i wrote an entry almost identicale to that one. (excuse my spelling) and ya know what. Wanting and hoping to get out of that hole isnt enough...you need more. You need a great friend to cry on, someone to talk to, and a reason to smile. Instead of thinking all thats bad, think whats good...there is..
[Anonymous]
good. (continueing) in the world...just not always easy to find in that state. Let all that pain and suffering out. breathe for once. start over. new diary. new attitude. you get out of it...i did. i was worse than you...i was committed for attempted suicide and such...but im fine now. happy as ill ever be,...but it was hell getting here. But every tear i shed on my way out was worth it...just...hang in there...and open up. thats the first step.
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