Im beginning to find these online journals stupid and useless or maybe i just feel that way about my words. most of my closest friends dont even know whats going on inside my head right now. i always keep everything inside becuz the fear of annoying people with my complants and making people think i just want attention. Garrett ran away in the middle of the night on thursday he was found later that day but there was a time that i thought i would never hear his voice again. it still hurts. he doesnt know how bad he fucked up his life by even just running away for one day. part reason he ran away was cuz my mom wouldnt let us talk anymore. now hes grounded from the phone and everything else til christmas he only made things worse for us. im so mad and i feel so alone i dont want to lose him but i know its going to happen. Why do people let themselves fall inlove?