I HATE TODAY!!!! its just one of those days that u wish u never woke up and got out of bed. Everything is crashing down on me and the one person that was ALWAYS there for me isnt there anymore. I guess i cant ever let myself trust anyone again cuz it only hurts me in the end. Hes the reason im becoming like this im not sure if he knows that and im not sure if he even cares ne more like he use to. Im not sure about ne thing anymore. im not even sure what im talking about. i dont care ne more i just want all this pain to go away and i want things to be how they use to be. I wasnt always like this i use to be happy and now a part of me has died. I cant keep living this life something has to get better. Things r so bad right now that they only could get better. Im wasting away to nothing my soul is shattered and im silently screaming everytime i look into ur eyes. Im almost gone. I like how it feels not to feel anything. -Lindsay