The Chad #27

Listening to: NONPOINT
Feeling: aggressive
Take me to the pain, and all the way back again. Taking me to the pain, and all the way back. Life sums up in three words, better than average. It never comes easy. It's a savage world. With damage attached, and doses of happiness, in between if you can survive the rest. The lies that consume you. Pain. The pain shows you the way. The feeling kills inside you. Pain. But you stay knowing eventually, the pain goes away. You have to get through it somehow. I'll tell you when, the time isn't now! I'm on the ground with 110 men, beating the life from me. I shake off most of them, to reveal my shattered bones. My stand my decision to, my reasons for it all. I take the way of the others... Straight back to the pain, and all the way back again. Taking me to the pain, and all the way back. Forget about taking though, seeing past, understanding, letting it go, forgiving and forgetting, when we know everything we know and doing nothing about it. We're just puppets with the hand of pain controlling form inside us and it takes us to the pain. Knowing that they hurt us when they take us back around again. Straight back to the pain, and all the way back. Could I put it down on paper for you? Then you're forcing me to suffer you. How alone we are till the pain comes along. How alone we are till the pain comes along. And when you think it's never going to pass, it's feeling so good at last. Just when you think it's never going to pass, it's feeling so good at last...
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its ok whenever you need help
my diary is a help stand
hello.
yeah today was crap! i haven't heard of em . sorry. its just my friend sam is being a butt and she won't let me do a damn thing like listen to new music, e-mail people, and that crap. but she finally gave up and said that i was impossible. i laughed at her.
aaalllllright... chillout my god. relax! if you didnt want me to care what you said, why'd you say it?! GOD!

really? you'll add me? thank you. i feel loved.
im sorry, but look what you wrote as a comment...


*closet
i know you guys didn't have sex geez you people are by far the most churchy people i know i was just picking on you and yeah meagahnananaans name is gay to spell because there is a random h in there somewhere oh yeah one more thing...mmmm...heating pad...
my lifes boring. nothing interesting. thats why i almost committed suicide.
well...i am sorry...


*closet
that's true. the first time i almost committed suicide was when i was 8.
i know. i hated everything. incluiding my family.

-killerinstinct
[Anonymous]
wow you must be some kind of sitdiary super pimp as you have 12 comments now on this one entry that you just typed....m-azing...
i love this song.
especiallyy during myy most aggressive times. (=

i'm not so sure that fear is the enemy.
there are times when fear is good...
the wayy it heightens your senses.
making youu more aware of your surroundings.

youu are the first person to tell me that thinking is bad.
everyone always either tells me that i think too much or not enough,
but they've never told me that thinking is bad.

so i guess that makes youu special.

but then again, myy preschool teache told me that everyone is special.
which made me wonder that if everyone was special...wouldn't no one be special??

see? i even thought too much as a four year-old.

♥verena

ps. sitD super pimp. lol. XD